I wish to be free from auto-imposed limits. Of things I tell myself that have to be done in a certain way, in a certain order, in a certain time. Constraints.
Today by 8.11am I had tears down my face while I worked because there was no way I could do it all and I couldn´t let go of a thing. Dishes HAD to be put away, more dishes HAD to be washed, the bikes HAD to be put away before any of the dogs could bite them, clothes HAD to be washed, clothes HAD to be hanged, add gym (I´m struggling with body image at the mo), bank, food shopping, food cooking, yada, yada, yada. All before noon.
If at least I´d be happy when all is done. I just feel tired and dread another day of the same.
Maybe all these things I tell myself that need to be done asap are not real. The world would still spin if the house was not finished by noon. But it doesn´t feel right yet. So I´ll go and work at warp speed now. *brave smile*
I enroled for Art Every Day Month 2010 yesterday.
It will be my 6th!!!
It is a project that Leah Piken Kolidas leads every November and as you may have guessed from the name, you commit to work on your art every day for the whole month.
Usually I have lots of ideas during October that I postpone to work on during November and come the first ... they are all gone!
So this year I´m planning on just starting and carry it on till December.