That was it. My mom had discovered my diary. I felt 12 again. That´s the age I was when I had written that diary back in the summer of 1979. A diary I could not even remember having written when it was found in 2011.
I was using every delaying trick in my book while desperately trying to remember. I was almost sure I hadn´t mentioned the butterfly necklace incident. Had I written that Mónica had smoked after school one day? She could sooooooo get into trouble next time our moms talked.
“Oooohhhhh! Errrrmmmm. Yesssss. Those magazines. Were there any Christmas issues? They were my favourites.” I mumbled, but mom was not falling for that. “Yes, there were two Christmas issues at the top. Your diary was at the bottom”.
A few months before the discovery I had been contacted on line by a friend from those days who had linked me to another one. We hadn´t met since finishing our primary school and barely seen each other on line. The day after I got my diary the three of us were there on Facebook at the same time. We decided to meet again and read the diary together.
|Isabel, Paula and Suky in 2011|
Here are two double spreads from my diary.
The first was written in November 1979 (aged 12 and 9months) It represents the writer, my storyteller with a camera side. It is a story mostly fictional and over the top sentimental but based on real characters. It mentions my cousin and her age, not even a year old then. Alexandra is 35 now with her own 9 year old son. She is my son´s Godmother and a fellow animé lover who we meet at conventions. I drew a scene from the story and zoomed in, as I would now with my digital camera.
|Almost like an early version of my blogging, back in 1979|
The second was written in February 1980, a few days before my 13th birthday. It represents my memory keeper side. I wrote exactly what each of us had for dinner out at a fancy restaurant and the cost of the souvenirs I bought. I still have some of the items I mention!
I didn´t include any of my “end of school” pages that I read with Isabel and Adriana as they are full of people´s names and I didn´t feel comfortable posting them. Not to mention the “who likes who” stories!!! Lol.
As I told you a couple of weeks ago when we were discovering our creativity cycles and how our energy flow, in our old diaries there are signs of who we are right there in our words, in what we found important, in what we noticed and recorded. I found the writer, the storyteller, the camera holder, the memory keeper in those pages.
Do you follow Julia Cameron´s recommendation of morning pages? Those are three handwritten pages to be used as a brain cleaning and compass calibrating exercise.
I always do them for long haul projects like the 70 chapters of "The Sound of Paper".
Tell me. Do you keep a diary?